Mom Rant

I am plain exhausted. EXHAUSTED. I have spent the better part of the day with a very fussy baby. I'm sure she isn't feeling well still, but finally today she is sounding better. We seemed to have made some serious progress with her sleeping and eating in the past two weeks and all the sudden, the last two days we have taken some big steps in the backward direction. I am emotionally and physically drained. It almost feels like when we first brought her home from the hospital...the type of exhaustion I feel. Up over and over in the night, constant nursing, crying every time I put her down and just bursting into tears for no apparent reason (both of us). I am sure this will pass and things will get back to "normal" and we will continue to make progress. I really hope I can just chalk all this up to her being sick this week.

Today I have been pooped on, peed on, puked on, screamed at, hit, clawed, and kicked. And then I have been smiled at and I wonder why in the world something so precious can be such a bear. For some reason, it seems as if she behaves differently with me than anyone else. She will have two or three good naps for my mom or Nathan, but doesn't want to sleep for me...especially without nursing to sleep. It's so frustrating and I wonder if I've started some bad habits with her that are going to be hard to break. I was really hoping that she would consistently be in her own bed by the time we go to Nashville in a few weeks, but I'm not sure if that will be realistic or not.

I am so ready to lose this baby belly, but in order to do that, my baby has to actually let me put her down so I can exercise or make a good meal!

OK, I am done. Whew! Nathan took her so that I could take a long shower and paint my toenails. It's amazing what a little red nail polish can do. Let's pray for a good night's sleep tonight!

Milestones!

A Valentine's photo of the Seago family. My, how things have changed since last year! Nathan and I went to the Cirque du Soleil show "Alegria" for our birthdays/Valentine's. It was great! We enjoyed getting to spend a little time with just the two of us.

I guess it has been made public now so I have some news... I am going to be changing jobs and working closer to home. I am going to be working less days, not commuting (the facility is less than 1/2 mile away) and getting to spend more time at home with Avery. I never realized how life changing it would be to have a baby and that I would want to stay home so much. I do love my profession and still enjoy what I do though. It was also a tough decision to leave where I am currently, as I feel loyalty there and enjoy my coworkers and patients, but we ultimately decided this was best for our long term goals as a family. Please pray for us, especially me, as I embark on this new venture.
In other news, Avery is now sleeping in her own bed! We were so prepared for her to cry it out, but it was about 5 minutes and then silence! She does wake somewhat frequently, but goes back to sleep fairly easily and then wakes once for a feeding. She sleeps from about 10pm-7:30am. We are still pretty tired because we are sleeping lighter, waiting for crying, but I'm sure that will improve. Right now, she has a cold so that is no fun either. Runny nose and nasty cough...yuck!
Aunt Shelly got Avery an exersaucer because the doctor said she needs to stand and play more on her own. Happy early birthday and Christmas present that is going to be really handy in the coming days!
Avery is also now experiencing some rice cereal. We've given her about 1-2 tablespoons at night and she really likes it. She was showing signs of being ready so we went ahead. We will probably start stage 1 foods in another 2 weeks or so. She will love it!
We were bummed about the Colts' Superbowl loss, but Avery looked super cute supporting them!
Anyway, as you can tell, there's a lot going on in the Seago household....lots of positive things! We are looking forward to a trip to Nashville in a few weeks and Nathan's dad's BIG 7-0! Have a blessed week!

Go Colts!

Avery can't wait for her first Superbowl party!